My Uncoordinated Life

I am very uncoordinated in general. I trip, fall, drop things, lose track of what I'm talking about, and am just all around uncoordinated in everything it seems. Recently, I have felt that I am uncoordinated in my daily life as well. It's like I am not accomplishing anything at all. I am getting rather sick of it. It seems ridiculous that I can't finish a non fiction book, get a work out schedule, get registered for classes, or any of the other million little things. If you haven't already figured it out I am a procrastinator. And lately it SUCKS!!! I mean it has never completely helped me but it seems to have gotten worse.

I want to and I am going to start changing that. Sigh...it seems rather daunting. I am going to work out 2-3 times a week at least. My sister is going to help keep me accountable because she is going to work out with me. I am going to finish the 3 devotional books I have started in the past year. (one at a time) I am going to register for classes for the next semester and I start that process tomorrow. I am going to coordinate my life! I would say I hope but that is not being positive. I'm thinking baby steps...baby steps will help. I do have small motivations for things as well but I don't feel like getting into those. I will let you know when I actually accomplish something!!!

Wisdom from a 4 year old

My last semester at college in California I was blessed to be able to spend basically everyday off campus in a real home with an amazing woman and her wonderful children. She shared a prayer from her 4 year old and it was exactly what I needed for today, after this week, and preparing for next week. He thanked God for the hurts. He prayed for church, and his family, then thanked God for his friend having a cut on his head, his dad being away, and his little brother being sick. He doesn't realize what he is saying but he still got it right. God is in control no matter how often we as adults forget it. Why not thank him for what he is doing in our life even if it may hurt. It truly is amazing though how the wisest things come from children. So before you finish your week or day thank God for what you aren't thankful for.

Eat, Pray, Love

I just watched this fabulous movie this week and plan to read the book soon. It was long but so good and in a way inspiring. If you don't already know or can't tell I am in love with quotes and this movie was full of them! It was a wonderful story line about finding yourself and who you want to be and I really related to it. That is something I am doing right now, searching for who I want to be. If you know what I mean. =) A quote from the movie really stuck out to me. "Ruin is a gift, ruin is the road to transformation." How many times to we go into despair because our plans are ruined or anything else that pops into your mind is RUINED. When in fact it isn't ruined it just needs to be transformed, changed, amended. My plans were ruined recently when my bf decided to change his R&R destination. His decision makes sense and is best for him and I will still get to see him but my plans were RUINED and I was pissed. I did cool down but looking at it now they were never truly ruined. I could have claimed that if I wasn't going to see him but all I have to do is transform my plans. My life may have some ruined spots but they are better now because I transformed them. So maybe ruin isn't such a bad thing after all...maybe it just means that something better is to come. Don't get me wrong the ruin can still hurt but most the time what comes next is amazing.

We must always remember

"I hear people saying we don't need this war
But, I say there's some things worth fighting for
What about our freedom and this piece of ground
We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down
They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in
Before you start your preaching let me ask you this my friend

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell
And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

They took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it's too disturbing for you and me
It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say
If it was up to me I'd show it everyday
Some say this country's just out looking for a fight
Well, after 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell
And we vowed to get the one’s behind bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I've been there with the soldiers
Who've gone away to war
And you can bet that they remember
Just what they're fighting for

Have you forgotten all the people killed?
Yeah, some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten about our Pentagon?
All the loved ones that we lost and those left to carry on
Don't you tell me not to worry about bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?
Have you forgotten?"

The first time I heard this song by Darryl Worley I teared up. The military have always held a special place in my heart and they automatically come to mind. How often do we forget everything that they and their families sacrifice for us to have the little things. Nine years ago the war came to us, on our land, in our homes, to our locals. Are we still remembering and fighting? This morning when I woke up the first thing I thought of was the one I love deployed in Afghanistan and how I never want him forgotten. He and those in his unit are there for me and you. Have you forgotten?

Best Quote of August!

I saw the best quote last month. Like a lot of quotes I have found recently it was on Facebook. It is so true and I hope you enjoy it!

"No matter what you think of me, remember it bothers you more than it bothers me!"

New Baby!!!

Wow...I haven't posted anything in a LOOONG time. But I have been very busy. My new nephew Jimmy Wray came into the world on August 26th at 9:34 am at 4lbs and 14oz. He was only 32 weeks and is still in NICU but he is doing so well. The doctors expected him to have to have a blood transfusion right away but he made it to a week and only had to get 35 ccs which boosted his color and numbers. He is a beautiful baby and such the little warrior. I've been there while the nurses have been drawing blood and he doesn't make a sound. We are hoping that he gets to come home early next week. Since I live with Jon and Keiki I have been there through this rather difficult pregnancy. Keiki has been joking that I will never have children after this. While I will admit to being a little more apprehensive and nervous I am not completely against it....there was one night in ER with Keiki listening to a couple other ladies it did cross my mind though. I can't imagine what my sister is feeling right now with so much going on with her baby but prayer and God have brought him so far already I know he will be home soon!

Summer Time

So...I haven't been very good at keeping up with posts on here. It has been a very busy few weeks. Sometimes I just wish for the days where I actually had a summer with days to relax and all the fun stuff. Since the last time I posted I have gotten a few days off. The most recent ended just yesterday. One of my best friends from college got to come up and visit me for a quick 3 day visit. It was fast but oh so much fun!! We shopped and ate fabulous food, got lost, found antique earrings, had great talks, and relaxed! It was a wonderful vacation. And the next step is to get everyone else I know to come visit me!!! Michigan isn't that bad people! I live here!!!! So...there's the hint get planning!!!